第一次聽到這首歌是在學生時期,朋友家的頂樓加蓋,我們離忠孝東路地面上的繁華有段距離,夏天晚上溫溫熱熱的,配上香菸和啤酒。
背景音樂就是Depeche Mode 的Dream On
(本來寫Depende Mode,小葉發現我寫錯字,留著吧,挺可愛)
主唱Dave Gahan低沈迷幻地唱著人類最根本的情感需求⋯
As your bony fingers close around me
Long and spindly death becomes me
Heaven can you see what I see
Hey you pale and sickly child
You're death and living reconciled
Been walking home a crooked mile
Paying debt to karma you party for a living
What you take won't kill you
But careful what you're giving
字裡行間盡是絕望也渴望被愛但又深怕被傷害拒絕。有時候,一段起手式不好的感情本身就是自我毀滅的預言,感覺「受傷害」似乎比什麼都沒感覺來得好些,感情的烈士都軟弱無力的歸責給輪迴和命運。
愛情跟藥一樣,能治療也能上癮,熱戀時期的多巴胺讓顏色都繽紛的起來,突然停止的戒斷期,比沒有還要難耐,這首歌的混音編曲製造的氛圍就是上癮後的慵懶迷幻
There's no time for hesitating
Pain is ready, pain is waiting
Can you feel a little love
Can you feel a little love
Dream on dream on